Today didn't start off very well, on my part at least. It was one of those mornings when I don't really want to talk to anyone and in fact don't wish to be spoken to. Fortunately for me, everyone went out within half an hour of my waking up so it worked out well. As the day passed I felt a lot better and soon it was time for church. I've actually been harbouring thoughts about changing church but I wasn't sure if the church my sister went to was the right one for me, hence I stayed at Lighthouse. After today, I think it is highly likely for me to attend their service there from now on. Anyway the point of the post is not to describe my day but to talk about all that I've learned today. It's been a while since I talked to my sister and today's chat was just really meaningful. I learned a lot from her today and I though I should just write down what I have reflected from it.
I learned that God works in our lives in very different ways; he's like a teacher who has provided lesson specially for us, knowing what will work or not. I also realised that following God is something we have to choose and do every day. It is not a habit or a way of life which you give no second thought about. It is something you have to consciously do and act upon. Also, God works using people. He can easily feed us by raining food but he uses people to work in other people's lives. I've always felt that I do not belong in Singapore as much as other people do. While I appreciate the convenience and the fact that my family and friends are here and also that I grew up here, there is really nothing more that gives me the sense of belonging. I've always found that I have differing view points from most people, what is important to them, how they view many different things, how they act. And this very reason has always pushed me to think that maybe I'll find a belonging in some other places or country. Today however, I was asked about if I have thought about why God has placed me where I am. If there is something he wants me to do but I'm too busy looking elsewhere to realise what he has placed in front of me. It is a fact that many people are always searching for something, and I am one of them. I keep looking for something beyond, for the future, but I've never thought about what is in front of me or in my hands. From today on, I'll use a different approach. I will starting asking God to show me what he has placed in front of me, what he has equipped me with and what am I to do to answer to his calling. For God does not call the equipped but equips the calling. I will also place my future in him and ask for him to equip me accordingly.
Today turned out really well afterall(:
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